today, took senior pictures. i hope they turned out good, but nevertheless i could care less how i look anymore. haha as long as im content with my self than ill be fine. DRESSSIN UP AS DONATELLO AND RUSTY SHANE AND JACK AS THE OTHER NINJA TURTLES!!!!! but yeahh in photo class we learned about this lady Lori Nix. she makes me hate photography. i mean her photos are absolutely amazing, and her idea/concentration is genius. [she makes diaromas of distratous situations and then photographs them.] like i juss wanna quit, but honestly i really am inspired by her. i wish to become as good as her one day maybe even better, but like i know that i don't have raw talent at photography but i keep workin on it and keep taking pictures hopefully they will be good. i really wannna do some in the arts, photo or maybe even dance? i really wanna dance, like its something i would do on the side during college. i mean i have performed plenty of times, just recently for Tatay's 85th birthday and when we were younger JAMM. so i mean im deff not afraid of performing. i just don't feel confident that i am good dancer. i would take classes on tuesdays but i jus don't like how people are forceful with cyphers. i mean all my childhood i [well im speakign on the behalf of me and JAMM] got forced to do things we don't wanna do. and dancing was one of them. we never came up with the idea of hey lets become dancers and start dancing for parties. we were forced to do it, and keep doing it for parties and what not. we had no say. i mean i actually liked dancing i didnt have a problem with that. but what i did have a problem with is that its our lives why do we have to do what you say? i don't like that, ive grown up to hate people bossing me around. i dont like it. i mean if someone really wants to do something they will do it. if they are too shy to cypher or dont wanna make a fool outta themselves then dont make them, it'll juss make them not wanna do it anymore. unless you know it turns into one of those cliche stories where someone made them do something and it turns out that they have a passion for it. blah blah blah.