Why is it that we have great days and just bad days whenever we talk? One day it is if everything is just fine and dandy, then the next is like awkward and horrible. This whole thing is so confusing. Now I realize that you don't think anything is going on between us, well from what you told me. I don't know, I, I mean we, have plenty of things to think about for the next two and a half months. I'm just confused about everything you know? I wish we had kept the relationship we had since last summer, but we didn't. Things happened, we both have changed. I wonder what you tell other people about me, like I wonder about what you say about me and about everything. How do I know you aren't just telling me what I wanna hear so we won't end up fighting again? Now now, this isn't a trust issue, of course not, it's just an insecurity that I have. You are extremely special to me and important. You may get on my last nerve, but I cannot be mad at you forever. I feel like I can tell you everything. You know how to make me smile, and talking to you brightens up my day. I told you all of this, but it seems like now the feelings aren't mutual. I don't know anymore, I know you don't either but this is killing me. This over analyzing and repetitive thinking of the same situation is getting old. It annoys me, how do I not know what to do? It makes me change my mind constantly, and now I'm unsure of what I want. But nevertheless, sooner or later a decision is gonna have to be made. For the better or worse, it will happen.