January 19, 2011

Today, my day was good. Life has been good. Run down: went to school, it was it's usual boring. then went and balled at the court. Fun times. It was just so chill today, I'm not complaining. Oh and the weather, it was great. Tomorrow is early release and hopefully gonna ball tomorrow as well. Lately, I have been getting back in shape for tennis and just for my overall health. I also want to get in shape for Fil-Am basketball, that is if I get on the team. I need some new basketball shoes, and maybe just use my old shoes for tennis. Also, you know I couldn't have blogged without talking about girls. lolol. So lately me and Desi have been texting again. I don't mind it. The other day a lot of things happened. Steph asked her if she was talking to me again, then she was like yeah but only as friends, but I guess she didn't believe her??? I'm not sure, what we wanna know is who told her. Neither her nor I told anyone that me and her were talking. But you know I had to ask her if we were talking as friends or you know talking again. Sadly, it's just as friends. But I don't mind, she told me "you know how it worked out before.". Yeahh before was definitely a really a lot of commotion and like unneccessary things happened. Like people telling her to stop talking to me, and what not like who are you guys to tell her who to talk too. I understand that you all are protective of her because she is the baby of the group. But she's growing up, she isn't that little girl you guys knew before. I think it's time you guys just let her do her own thing, like make her own decisions and stop babying her. I'm not saying this because of what happened, it's just a general statement about her. But yeah , hopefully you still like me, but you know how things always work out how I want them too, they never do. But if you do, if we never work out then you know it's fine with me. Still talking everyday is good with me. Honestly, I just want you happy. If it's happiness with another guy, then sobeit. I just want you happy and smiling. I hate how your always like miserable, and how people treat you like your nothing and how they don't respect that you are the only one that knows what's best for you. I don't like how people treat you like your incapable of making decisions. I wish you would step up and stand up for yourself. Tell them that you know what you are doing and that they shouldn't be worrying about you. I wish you could do that, for yourself. Like I said, I want you happy. Your too good of a person to be always down. I love your smile, and wanna see that all the time and never want to see you fake it. You are like the only one that I know that takes the time outta their day to talk to me. Well yeah I have my friends that I talk to and text, but you do this consistently. I really like it, you make me feel like I actually matter. Like you really care about me. I get a smile on my face whenever you text me. Alright enough with the gooey stuff. haha