I just wanna give up on everything. I feel like now I have just wasted everything but not doing my best and slacking off. I really hate this feeling. Today was just an awful day, it started off bad to begin with. Didn't feel good for the entire morning, but it went away somehow. Then the rest of the school day was good, went and played basketball. It was an overall okay day for me. I just feel worse than it really was. I really don't know what has gotten into me the last couple days. Now that final exams are next week, I am not pleased with where my grades stand. 1 A, 1 C, and the rest are B's. I could have so gotten straight A's if I actually applied myself. I regret being lazy and slacking off so much now. I don't even know what I want to do after high school, college for sure. But I don't know what I want to major in, or even be. The future is just so annoying right now. But I wore my glasses for the first time to school today. Everyone liked them, but like Mr. Grimes and Ms. Arroyo and Ms. Street said I look older. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or bad, but looking older than i really am wasn't really what I was aiming for. I have an SAT tomorrow morning, which I really don't want to take. I didn't even wanna take it to begin with, but stupid stupid stupid people. I really am in a depressed state of mind right now. I feel like nothing is working out for me. I'm scared outta my mind now that ODU is looking at my application, I don't want to get rejected. I really just hate myself right now. And it's not good.