april 18 2010

so friday in leadership class we had this thing called "appreciation day" and we basically wrote down what we admire about every single person in the class, and our teacher put everything for one person on a sheet of paper and printed it out. the class and that entire day was great! like i read what the people in my class said about me and i was very surprised on what they said. like i didnt expect most of the tihngs they said and i was pretty happy about it. lol like most people said i was humorous. i didnt think i was funny but you know, i guess i am. haha. someone recognizes that i work extremely hard to stay in LCSE and i was so happy someone saw that! haha. it just surprised me that people see me as different as i see myself. so 2mrow is our last game of the season vs churchland! and then next monday is the district tournament. hope i do good LOL. but yeahh college is deff scaring me right now. honestly im not confident that i will get into a college that im interested in. like i know by graduation ill have LCSE, 200+ volunteer hours, extracurriculars, and honors to graduate with. but i feel that im not good enough for school such as UCLA, USC, UVA, VCU, etc. i know i should apply to them anyway but still i dont wanna get the letter of rejection. i regret slacking off in middle school and high school, cause instead of having a 3.02 and okay grades. i COULD have at least a 3.6 and great grades. the thought of "what if" i didnt slack off makes my spine tingle. like i just shake my head right now and just go on with my life. but yeahh i don't wanna leave VA but then i do. im stuck in the middle, like i dont wanna leave cause of the people ive met and i know ill miss my family. but then i do because i wanna meet new people and explore the WEST COAST, haha. Cali is where its at mannnn! haha. i just dont wanna basically "start over" with making new friends, and a whole new situations and what not. but hopefully i get acceptance letters from those schools i apply too! but yeahh, just recently my passion for dance has grown trendmendously, haha. ive just been wanting to dance again, i mean im not good at all but i still wanna try it. me and jo need to find jobs ASAP. but its hard finding a job that i will like, me and him have been talkin about starting our own business but the hard part is figuring out what kinda business! i mean im interested in clothing business, but i don't know. like hopefully we do becaus eentreprenuerialship is something i really wanna do.